ok, that was crappy writing back there....

so what's been going on? i'm tired and lonely. yes, lonely. i feel like i'm the lego piece out; i don't seem to fit in anything (clubs, classes, groups) or anywhere. i work till exhaustion to try and ignore it. i don't know what it is really; it feels like i don't have a friend that i can tell stuff and they can tell stuff to me back... wow, that sounds childish... i just sit in room: chill and eat in front of the computer.

i know i'm smart in some sense of the word. people tell me i'm smart, but i don't want/can't believe them. am i smart enough to get into graduate school? do i really have what it takes? people that started with me are already accepted to schools and leaving by the end of may, while i'm still stuck here another year.

i'm trying not to let it show; just working really hard.

found some stories on the hard drive when i was taking creative writing some semesters ago; they're horrible, but i think i'll work on them when i have time (do i ever have time?). got my gift certificate from amazon.com; was going to buy shirely bassey, the remix album or gorillaz, but now i'm thinking daft punk.

i'm really ok.... really... just tired, that's all...