i'm upset that my friends don't trust me enough to tell me anything. and it seems to be a growing trend. that's all i can say right now before spewing words that don't make sense... i have to 'marinate' on it some more...

what is it? i grew up with these people... i don't understand. is it that i'm naive? the highlight of my day is almost chopping my finger off or failing a class while my friend gets pregnant, drops school, has a baby and never calls me. am i unschooled? do i know nothing of life? am i sheltered? just because i don't smoke (weed), drink, have sex, have a relationship and leave my room spic-n-span? well, f*ck, they still don't know about equilibrium or this...

ARG! i'm upset.