the day that i finally decide to drop out of choir, vicky winans gonna sing with them. sike-a-boo; i sure know how to pick em.

when JK came over, i just happened to be in crispy's room. they started talking music stuff and i didn't feel right being in there, so i went to my room and tried desperately to do something when all i could think of was: that ass.... but he came in later and we talked a bit; the air has been cleared. but there still some issues that we only grazed upon and i don't know how to bring them up again. i don't know if i ever will; i don't know how things are going to work out. it's hard for me to confront people with things in general.

when it comes to these things, i tend to be brash or despondent. and with other things (you know... IMPORTANT things), i tend to act childish. i'm just starting to notice how i act in certain situations. sometimes i wish i weren't so brash and loud for no apparent reason or apathetic or childish. how am i ever going to make it outside in the real world?

anywhos, i have orgo lab today. peace. (and why is it so damn hot outside? what happened to spring?)