written: 26 may 2002; 9.20pm
i've been kind of out of sync for the past couple of days since the semester ended. Been spending alot of time by myself: sleeping, watching tv, chilling. i kind of just want to distance myself from UMBC people just a bit. i think i just need this time.
UMBC commencement was on thursday. i had a little problem with rides, but i got it all figured out somehow. my secondary ride however was quite late, but it didn't really matter because one: graduation was in the big ass baltimore arena... you can't see anyone anyways and two: we missed dr. h speak which is always a good thing. the valedictorian was this 19 year old super genius which only made me feel more ignorant and slow than i feel right now. of course, dr. h was just beeming with pride like he was the child's parent because he also graduated from undergraduate @ 19 and got his PhD @ 24.
anyways, after the three hour ceremony was over, my ride and i went out to hug the choice graduates before we left to escape traffic. i saw some friends of mine that graduated including rotisserie, iced tea, rich, and JK. i always seem to have strange encounters with JK. I congratulated him and he thanked me. there was an odd silence between ius even throuh the lobby was bustling with overjoyed graduates and family; each of us picking our nails and looking around us. finally, he said: come here and give me a hug. keep in touch, i blurted out as we arkwardly embraced. yes maam, he replied. and i moved on. literally. i don't know about mentally; there are so many 'what ifs'. and i know he's not going to keep in touch. i'm trying not to think about it as much anymore.
i almost ran into r-butter (who also graduated); truthfully, he's a really nice guy (he gave me a hug and said he was going to miss me earlier in the semester) but... i don't know. he'll be around even though i don't want to him to be.
when i got back from commencement, almost immediately i took a nap for two hours. for the past couple of days, i've been feeling quite tired even though i haven't been doing anything strenuous since moving out. i haven't even gone outside; one: there's nothing to do. and two: i have no money to spend. dad complains when i turn the ac off because i don't realize how hot it is outside. my bad.
but i did got out today; with mom and the brothers to watch epsiode 2. i really want to see it at uptown in DC, but the line was crazy. so i just wanted to see spiderman at city place in downtown SS, but the brothers insisted on star wars. the movie was ok; a nice filler of who, how and why for episodes 3, 4 and 5,
i need to update stuff: my room (which is a disaster), this site, my school site, etc. i only have a couple days before summer school starts.
it's raining outside.
i've been kind of out of sync for the past couple of days since the semester ended. Been spending alot of time by myself: sleeping, watching tv, chilling. i kind of just want to distance myself from UMBC people just a bit. i think i just need this time.
UMBC commencement was on thursday. i had a little problem with rides, but i got it all figured out somehow. my secondary ride however was quite late, but it didn't really matter because one: graduation was in the big ass baltimore arena... you can't see anyone anyways and two: we missed dr. h speak which is always a good thing. the valedictorian was this 19 year old super genius which only made me feel more ignorant and slow than i feel right now. of course, dr. h was just beeming with pride like he was the child's parent because he also graduated from undergraduate @ 19 and got his PhD @ 24.
anyways, after the three hour ceremony was over, my ride and i went out to hug the choice graduates before we left to escape traffic. i saw some friends of mine that graduated including rotisserie, iced tea, rich, and JK. i always seem to have strange encounters with JK. I congratulated him and he thanked me. there was an odd silence between ius even throuh the lobby was bustling with overjoyed graduates and family; each of us picking our nails and looking around us. finally, he said: come here and give me a hug. keep in touch, i blurted out as we arkwardly embraced. yes maam, he replied. and i moved on. literally. i don't know about mentally; there are so many 'what ifs'. and i know he's not going to keep in touch. i'm trying not to think about it as much anymore.
i almost ran into r-butter (who also graduated); truthfully, he's a really nice guy (he gave me a hug and said he was going to miss me earlier in the semester) but... i don't know. he'll be around even though i don't want to him to be.
when i got back from commencement, almost immediately i took a nap for two hours. for the past couple of days, i've been feeling quite tired even though i haven't been doing anything strenuous since moving out. i haven't even gone outside; one: there's nothing to do. and two: i have no money to spend. dad complains when i turn the ac off because i don't realize how hot it is outside. my bad.
but i did got out today; with mom and the brothers to watch epsiode 2. i really want to see it at uptown in DC, but the line was crazy. so i just wanted to see spiderman at city place in downtown SS, but the brothers insisted on star wars. the movie was ok; a nice filler of who, how and why for episodes 3, 4 and 5,
i need to update stuff: my room (which is a disaster), this site, my school site, etc. i only have a couple days before summer school starts.
it's raining outside.
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