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the relatives have left the building. well, at least one of them; uncle is going back to kenya on tuesday. of course, before he left, he had to give a little going away speech. i think it runs in dad's side of the family; talking way too much for no apparent reason.
i've been feeling kind of ... not happy lately. just not in a good mood. and it's annoying me because it seems that everybody wants me to just put a smile on my face. i mean, why do i have to be smiling all the time, even when i don't feel like it. i'm tired of faking it.

i'm tired of being here. in maryland. mom's been treating me like a child lately, i still have no money, i'm bored and i want to go out. somewhere. anywhere but here. it's that time again; it's time to leave the state. anybody want to host me? money's burning a hole in my savings account.
one more week of summer school; one more week of trekking to b-more during the summer. cousins still want me to come and move in with them for the school year; for some reason, mom is hesitant. i still don't have a job here, so that could be a possibility. but then i only have two classes. i don't know.
too many other things going on; i don't even know where to start on those ones.

anyways, i have homework to finish. peace for your evening.