i actually had a good weekend; of course, i didn't do any work. i would of yesterday, but somehow, OG pursuaded me to go to a GC performance with her in DC. and then all hell broke loose. the performance was in NW DC, but somehow we got lost. let's just say that we spent two hours passing the MCI center 5 times and then somehow ended up in NE DC. all we could do was laugh, cos we didn't even know the name of the church that we were supposed to be going to once we finally got to the right street. It was fun though; it's been awhile since i went back to the city (even though i live around the place; i just don't have the time for sight-seeing anymore), so it was nice just to look around.
we ended up going back to my house, ordering pizza and watching the closing ceremony for the olympics. we screamed when kiss and earth, wind and fire came on and boogied to the beat; timon thought we were crazy. sometimes you just have to get up and dance. awwwww. it felt good.

since i've been commuting, i've been feeling a whole less stressed. i don't have these people on-campus just annoying the hell out of me. i can just get up and leave and i love it. i've been in an absolutely great mood since friday.

out of the blue, naj emailed me back. that girl.... she's been working and paying off those school bills. i'm thinking that i could go visit her for spring break (on the west coast in seattle). i need to travel more often; we'll see how things pan out.

i feel so good, i actually feel like writing something. a poem, a story, a song. it's been a long time since i've felt lik this; let's just hope it lasts.

it's the end of another week and i'm chillin' at home in the basement; it's cold down here.

had my physics exam today; i can't complain... it was pretty easy and i prepared the best for it. i passed it though and i don't think i could get any worse than a C. last night/this morning, OG, T, D and D's friend came over the house to study; it was pretty productive for me since through explaining to them, i was able to understand what i had learned. we went to two 7-11s around 3 in the morning (cos the first one didn't have any beef patties); i know the guys at the counter were probably wondering what college students were doing around these parts (and he charged us extra for it). we were a long ways from baltimore, even though we all grew up around here.

anyways. so i have decided... or not, not to go to vegas (i just didn't have the time to withdraw money). i don't feel happy or sad, but relieved that i don't have to choose anymore; i don't know why it was so hard for me to choose in the first place. i still don't know what i'm going to do for spring break, but right now, it's all good in the hood.

i would write more, but my brother is trying to use the computer. good weekend y'all.

did you see the race? did you see my baby win? aww, kim was trying to play dirty, but you don't play like that in the olympics... it was a good one. it was worth skipping class (for me at least).

my commute wasn't that bad this morning; not as good as yesterday's, but not that bad.

i have until friday now to turn in money for vegas; i chose not to go yesterday, but this morning, i don't know.... i don't know what's wrong with me; i just can't choose.
anyways, i should be studying now... i have an exam tomorrow. coolio.

no african dance for me today. actually, i'm skipping; i didn't do my laundry yet (and i'm wearing a lovely shirt from my summer collection...) and i really need to watch Apolo... i mean, the olympics tonight and i have a physics exam coming up. sike-a-boo.

remember how i said that i was just going to go to las vegas? well, yesterday, i was having second thoughts yet once again. i don't know what to do, but the money is due today and i need an extention. of course, you say, go to las vegas... but i don't know if i want to go with these people that have all this negative energy focused towards me. ugh! i need to think about it some more.

i had a good morning commute this morning (i'm currently in the library); just breezing by @ 85 mph, passing slow people. it was the best commute i've had ever; i got here in less than 20 minutes. yes, i am the bomb driver...

anyways. class, food, work, drive and kick ass; not exactly in that order

since i'm home, i have been watching more of the olympics now; i hardly even watch tv when i'm at school. really got into the short track/speed skating and especially this guy. i don't know what it was that caught my attention, but it did. so i'm watching. especially wednesday night.

today was good. took the brother to UMBC; apparently we look so much alike, i didn't even have to introduce him as my brother. r-butter swarmed around for a bit waiting for me to introduce him. why? this time i'm taking control of the situation; you cut me off, you have been cut off. stop looking for a way in because the door is closed. ugh.

i wasn't sure if i wanted to go to las vegas or not for spring break, but i really do want to go. so i am paying and going and doing what i have to do. sike-a-boo.

anyways. sleep is where i must go now.

waking up early in the morning, commuting, cooking dinner and still doing classwork is not what i expected. and it's only the first day.

today turned out better than i expected.
in the morning, alot people came up to me and didn't understand why i wasn't 'celebrating' valentine's day. what's wrong, they said. are you bitter? don't be bitter? ugh! that nearly drove me crazy all day. i didn't eat anything because i was afraid if i did, i was going to throw it up from all the valentine's day talk going around; i was already dry heaving at the pub.
anyways, i went to work and then i went to the gym with OG early in the evening. but of course, that's when things got better. really. from the last person that expected; bbq agreed with my point of view about valentine's day. although things didn't get any better (my gay stalker crushed me in a hug; yes, he's gay and yes, he stalks me... i still don't understand it either), i would have to say that the day ended on a very positive note for me.

i'm in the library now waiting for OG and a friend to get out of evening classes so that we can go practice some of the moves from african dance in fine arts. whoodoggie! (wow, i haven't said that in awhile) i get paid tomorrow. so yes, it's all good in the hood in chi-land. like the famous rap lyric: peace, see ya lata.

have a good weekend.

no, the shower is not running, but it will be soon.

i was going to read some physics for a couple of hours after african dance, but i am dirt tired. and i'm lazy. african dance was a trip; that woman took every ounce of energy that i had left. the steps are getting harder and there are so many complicated moves. my friend said that i was on point, but i highly doubt it; i need to practice.

anyways, valentine's day is tomorrow and i don't care. i don't know if i'm really bitter (as i was several weeks ago), but i'm certainly not feeling it. even if i was in a relationship (and that is so hypothetical, it's not funny), it would just be a regular day. why does a special day have to be set aside for you to tell me how much you love me? why can't you do that everyday? and if you can't, there's the door.
several people invited me to the valentine's day auction that they had. i didn't go; i don't believe in selling yourself off like cattle to the highest bidder. it was for charity? why didn't you just spend your valentine's day with one of the children in that organization instead of sending them money? they would of benefited from one-to-one interaction so much better. i think that such auctions are childish. that's my opinion and i'm sticking to it.

anyways, i'm going; i wanna give a shout-out to my peeps: marcus, alison, ger, nick, onye, jeremy (where are you man?!), veen, O-G, ash, crispy (you know i didn't forget you gurl!) and yvette (get better soon).
peace.

geez. the things that i do... i stayed up till 5 to finish my physics homework. i should of just stayed up, but i have a full day of classes, so i went to sleep for only three hours. i have class in about half an hour and i can hardly keep my eyes open. this is what results because i didn't do any work this past weekend...

sister souljah was good; she's a very powerful speaker.

ok. food and class. food and class. class and food. something in that order.

Happy Chinese New Year.

last week i recieved a card in the mail that i know really wasn't for me; i guess the name that closely fit with it was mine. knowing that this person didn't attend this university anyways (the dorm address didn't exist; they forwarded the card to me), i opened up the card. the postage is international so i can only assume it came from china and the card is in chinese. still i feel most greatful to recieve best wishes (i hope) for the chinese new year.

physics homework and orgo lab await me today. i'm gonna try to go to the gym today too; i'm starting not to find the time already.

so here i am at the computer. it's late. ash is sleeping the living room and O-G is taking a nap on my bed before she drives home. we were doing physics homework earlier, but that wasn't working out at all.

i was working at the bookstore today and i was taking a break. i ran into one of r-butter's friends and he started to harrasse me about how my 'boyfriend' was there. ewww. and then i swear r-butter was in the pub for four hours for no reason. my friend told me that he came into the bookstore three times on friday; probably looking for me. i don't know why; probably because i've been telling people how self-arogant he is. and he is. some people just get on my damn nerves and he's one of them. i really try to be nice to people, but there's always the few that you can't stand anyways.

sister souljah is coming up to campus tomorrow; gonna go see her speak and have her sign my copy of her book, the coldest winter ever.

usually i don't talk to people on IM that much, at least people i don't know. but recently, i have. it's refreshing. i should do it more often.

this weekend was a long weekend. lots of people came over and stayed the night. i didn't get any studying done.

too many things to do this month: lots of responsibilty and commuting... yes, i'll be commuting to school for awhile. it's good though; i get to eat food from home and leave this place when i don't have to be here. nice trade-off.

i got memoirs of a geisha that i ordered earlier than i expected; i already started reading it even though i should be reading organic chemistry or physics. it's good though.

well, let me go and organize for my day tomorrow.

somedays i just like acting silly. yesterday i was in the library with some guy friends of mine and we were acting quite silly doing physics homework. sometimes you just need to act silly to release the "whatever" is bothering you, you know? i was releasing the "whatever".

i am obviously in a good mood. came back from african dance 2 hours ago; yes, i am keeping the class. i don't know about the dancing in the bras and the whatnot, but we'll cross that bridge when we get there. since dance, i've been chillin' in the library with O-G; she's sleeping on a couch. i'm trying to wake her up so she can drive me up the hill, trying to stay away from the lounge area where i won't be able to seduce bbq... oops, did i say that out loud?! you see what african dance can do to you?

did you see us on tv today? the chess team was on CNN today; big whooping do! am i supposed to care? come to our school for our championship chess time for infinity times in a row! whoop-de-do! i don't think so....

(side note: why do men where do-rags in public? and why do they wear them when they are bald?)

ok. O-G and i are going to go to giant to get some cheesecake, yum! cheesecake is bad good really bad DAMN GOOD!

.....

i should go now shouldn't i?

i know it's been a couple of days now. i'm just trying to enjoy what i got. maybe i'll explain later.

however, i would like to mention that rev. al sharpton is one interesting mo-fo; and i do mean that in a good way. he spoke here (umbc) tonight. he doesn't go around discrimination, he cuts right through it. i especially loved the 'bush jr. and osama' joke. he's a very well spoken man and if you don't like him, he don't care either.

goodnight.

so.. yeah. happy birthday to me.

i woke up this morning and ghetto crispy had this sign right in front of my door, so when i opened it, you could say that i was surprised. i have a feeling that there are more surprises to come as i go through out the day.

thanks naveen for the oasis CD; tee-hee. and the best birthday present of all, my throat is feeling much better, which is good, because today i have two rehersals.