soundtrack: ER

so i ended up not going to the party. i'm watching ER and starting on this formal report instead. why? personal reasons.

my biochem professor must think i'm nuts now. throughout the whole conversation that we (biochem crew) had with him after class, he was looking at me in an odd way; i could see from the corner of my eye. it's ok. i know i'm crazy.
earlier today, we were supposed to be studying for our quiz next week, but we ended up watching the boys play pool. oh, and they looked so good doing it.

anyways. i'm busy. leave a message.

peace.

soundtrack: oasis: wonderwall

so we (the biochem crew) get out of lab early (overnight PCR-ing) and instead of doing something useful like, i don't know, studying, we sat in the commons and just chilled for two hours. loud, ghetto, out-of-control cheeky, kind-of-chillin'. actually, it started earlier in the day. the boys were stuggling to finish writing up the lab while us girls mocked them. cheekiness ensued along with discussion of my love life (?). my girl turned on me and started siding with the boys, listing off names. but then i had secrets of my own, which shut her up quick but left the boys begging for more. fast forward to later this evening. still discussing me and my fortune cookie forturne: your virtues are your priceless treasures. 'after sex,' one of the boys mumble and ab-working laughter follows. well i never. cheekiness indeed.

i was going to stay on campus for umbc's version of i bet you will, because i'm in serious need of money and i'm about to do anything to get it. but they're giving out gift certificates and not money. i'm not feeling that, so i'm at home in my cold, cold room. the only room in the house without any heat. i'm trying to figure out if i should go to this halloween party or not. i don't believe in/celebrate halloween but i still want to hang out with the biochem crew, because i never do. i don't know; i have a feeling things are going to be a little crazy and that i shouldn't go.... but then again, who would want to miss the craziness?

still looking for a place to live near school next semester. somebody brought up the idea of moving on campus, which doesn't seem like a bad idea, but i don't know if i can deal with the on-campus life again. the only thing that's really irking me about this commuting thing is the fact that i have to drive at least 30 minutes everyday. it's an idea, but i don't know. i don't really want to live with anyone else, so i would be looking for a single. ugh, it's just too much.

it's funny now that i think about it: i used to have a kfc crew and now, since most of them have graduated, i have a biochem crew. food for thought.

peace.

soundtrack: really latenight tv

this past week was studious. despite the fact that i was sleeping on a sofa, i still slept in late every morning, wondering why my insomnia disappeared on a hard couch. i think i did ok on the exam; hopefully, i put in enough specifics that i actually get credit for some of the problems. by friday, the study group was starting to get crazy; random dissing and falling over into exasperated laughter and/or frustration. i can't even count the times the i just fell on the floor because i lost my balance writing flowcharts from various experiments. i know i looked like such a fool. it was no 'isopycnic', let me tell you (same density centrifugation... i know, it's too much). that's when you know it's too much: you use scientific terms in normal conversation. ugh.

since al's birthday was this week, we had a surprise party for him today. he was totally clueless; i pull off these things way too well. the extended family and the friends weren't mixing too well, but i didn't really care. i could care less. had fun with the friends. it was great. happy birthday bro.

today, my tutee came up to me and jumped me. 'an A. i got an A on my chemistry exam!' she said, jumping, excited. it feels good to know that i didn't waste five years in biochemistry for nothing. no really. it feels good.

even though time has 'fallen back' i suppose i should go to sleep. since i don't have a formal lab report due monday (aw yeah!), i can actually do something tomorrow (today) like... shopping. i need boots so bad; i'm tired of hearing cracks about my wannabe keds. happy birthday crispy; i love you like my sista.

peace.

soundtrack: nbc4 news

today was an ok day. original (who happens to be my biochem lab partner) was out of town visiting med schools, so i was on my own. i would of done ok if they hadn't messed up on the protocol; my dna wouldn't be sitting in ethanol as we speak. everybody in lab was pretty cheeky today; tickling insues once again. spending the rest of the week on campus; studying for the next biochem lab exam and i have a singing engagement.

friday was nice. early friday morning (like 2.30-ish), a drunk driver hit a utility pole that just happened to carry power to campus. thus, the whole campus was out. they finally decided to cancel classes for the rest of the day around noon, as some classmates and i were studying in the warmer climate of barnes and noble. i've been keeping myself away from stores, especially bookstores since there is no income flowing in. temptation, my friends. i was really close to purchasing a really nice volume of the count of monte cristo; i heard the book was way better than the movie. but alas, my interesting reads right now is my biochemistry textbooks. two degrees: i taped the man in the iron mask (written by the same person) that came on tv, to watch later. i should of programmed for three hours, but i was dumb thinking that it was two. and it cut off at the good part too. i need to go hunt the tape/dvd down before i go crazy like i did when i missed the last 20 minutes of spartacus (please don't ask).
i'm switching up the books and cds on the side; go lookie see.

so the sniper called? i guess s/he is getting tired of the fact that mo. co. cops can't catch him/her. the press conferences are meaningful now. how much you wanna bet that this dude is gonna do something for halloween?

it's almost the end of the month and i'm trying to figure out if i'm going to take the GRE's or not. i don't really have the time to sit down and do graduate school apps and whatnot, but then i would feel bad if i didn't even attempt to try. i keep on putting stuff off. people who are late themselves are telling me it's not too late while others are telling me not to rush things. i don't know what to do.

i'm tired and i get to sleep in tomorrow. yay. peace.

soundtrack: cowboy bebop: car 24

hi everybody that emailed me. sorry that i haven't emailed you back. i will. soon.

why did i pick a stupid paper to analyze this week? it was so.... stupid. anyways. it's done.

added a comments thingie (thanks onye); so now you have no excuse.

tired. sleep. good. peace.

soundtrack: nbc4 news

i just have to say this. for some odd reason, the parents were watching fastlane (on fox). during the last minutes, this girl gets killed and they play coldplay: in my place. if ever a song felt so out of place in a scene, it was that scene. wtf? i could stand it when they used it on smallsville, but fastlane? that was totally unneccesary. why do they have to go and mess up my song.

anyways, if i drank, i would probably be drunk right now. drunk with happiness. happiness because i got an A on my biochem exam. 25% of my grade is an A. yes. very good. kiss me, i'm smart.

terps had a good night too; go terps. you redskins could learn a thing or two from them.

i would write more but i have to go prepare for tomorrow. peace.

soundtrack: latenight tv

i want to write, but the words are not coming out. so let me try.

lab was good yesterday even though we didn't finish what was needed to finish. a little bit of dancing, dissing, giggling, tickling (i was the one that was tickled) and the power of 'the smooth'. isolating dna has never been so fun.
today, i drove up to the campus and found out that class was cancelled. agitation mixed with pure joy. went to the gym with crispy to work out the agitation and hung out for a bit before going home. i can't be mad now; the gas is gone.

i try to make it a point to avoid bbq at all costs, to keep my sanity. so that's exactly what i did, walking clear around the academic services building. good, i though. went to the car and then the otc to grab some breakfast. good. good. good. then God decided that fate should smack me clear across the other side of reality. as i put money back into my wallet, who should walk through the door. his class must of ended early or something. like the gentleman he is, he walked me to the library. while he talked about what he did this past weekend, i mumbled and stumbled over my words. mentally, i hit my hand to my head. somehow we got on the subject of the new movie, brown sugar. you know, it's like boy meets girl. boy and girl fall in love. boy and girl fall out. boy and girl get back together and get married, he watched me carefully as he opened doors to the cool morning outside. i was careful not to look at him, because if i did, my resolve would break. oh. i said. finally we parted ways and i breathed a sigh of relief. crispy asked me today why i feel this way. sanity, crispy. my sanity.

my friend, K, the other day talked about options. how do you call them options when you know you can't act upon them? i asked her. she said, it's not that you can act upon them or not, it's just that you have the option.... let's just say i have alot of options right now.

tomorrow: workout, keeping my sanity, easy lab, lots of options and less gas than i had when i started. good day indeed.

goodnight. peace.

soundtrack: oasis: wonderwall

al always asks me why i still listen to this song. 'let it go chi,' he says, 'it's old.' yeah. it is. even though it brings back memories of bad events in my life, it reminds me of some of the good ones too. it's still on my tracklist.

i keep on wondering why it's so cold outside and then i remember that we're in the middle of october. it was freezing warming up the car this morning and then walking to the gym. the workout was really good today though. my legs are getting huge; it seems whatever i do, even cardio, my legs just grow to massive proportions. i stopped lifting with legs and trying to do the cardio machines that don't focus on the legs (stairclimber). anybody have any suggestions on diet or exercise for someone who tends to buff up quickly? when i lift, i try to keep the lbs low, but it's not really helping. anyways, monday is starting out really well; i'm ahead of schedule on things.

i'm kinda feeling separated from people lately. just enjoying the time that i have by myself, i suppose. but i know i'm isolating myself, which isn't good. ugh.

even though i'm ahead of schedule, i still have some work to finish before lab. peace.

soundtrack: CSI

so, that exam was easier than i thought it was going to be; it's good to stress though. so now i'm relaxing. for now.

so, there was also a job fair today. i dressed up real nice and it took me an hour to find parking this morning. ran into some friends who were doing a photo shoot with the prez. next thing i know, i'm doing a photo shoot with the prez. real interesting. job fair was ok. i need a job now though, not when i graduate.

remember kids, be nice or the badness comes back. joking about the dumb broads in my class circled back into a really nasty email from 'him'. ugh.

anyways, other stuff that i need to do.

peace.

soundtrack: coldplay: warning sign

you ever have those theoretically good days, like if you were observed by a third party, they would say that it was a good day, but in reality, inside, it's not all good. that's today. everything was great. finished my assignments, biochem lab actually worked and tutoring (i'm the tutor!) was cancelled (even though that was bad note because mo. co. is on code blue again), but it's still not all good. i don't know. just stuff.

i was going to work out again this evening, but i'm thinking that it's too late in the evening and i'll never get to sleep. i want good sleep today; i don't know if i'm going to get that.

i feel like designing something. a site. equilibrium maybe. but there's no time right now. boo.

i should go study; i have a biochem exam thursday. yeah, that would be a good thing.

peace.

soundtrack: coldplay: clocks

on thursday, i came home about an hour after the first shooting happened down the road from my house. down the road, next to the local police station. then the other shooting happened the next morning and i was trying not to freak out even though all these places are 10 minutes and less from my house. the parents called and ordered me to pick up timon from school; when i got there, the cops had rifles too. told my friend that it was funny because i always see the dc police chief, but i never saw the mont. co. chief until that day. he looks young.

anyways, 'he' is engaged to be married. he wanted to tell me in person, but since his flight was leaving early, he told me over the phone. i laughed. i mean, i always initally laugh. i can't even count the number of weddings that i'll be attending by the end of this school year, including my cousin's wedding that i'll be in. married or having babies. geez. sometimes it's too much to think about. i'm not going to be one of these people. that's my reality check.

anyways, forever trying to get work done. hi marcus and tek; you're back.

peace.

sountrack: erykah badu: didn't you know?

whoohoo. the month of hell has started; no breaks, no mercy, just classes for a month straight on. i'm ready to take it on.

my aunt is visiting from new york; her 9-mo. old baby is absolutely adorable. everytime i come into the room or come back from school, her face just lights up and she starts smiling and laughing. people never do that anymore; get excited to see me. at least there's somebody out there that still cares.

bought two new CDs today; pure whim. coldplay's a rush of blood to the head and india.arie's new one. i haven't listened to them yet.

i've been kind of out of it lately; just don't feel so socialable. some things i just let slide off my back.

peace. goodnight.