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there's shade in the air. it must be in the water too, because i'm feeling it from many people (also see shadester; shady lady).
how does he do it? B called me this evening (he's already been calling me too much) to ask if i was still a vegetarian (for forrest's dinner on sunday) and then somehow lures me in this conversation on i should let him take me out and when i would be free. is he kidding me? does he still think i'm as dumb as i was in high school? he claims that we have a date on some random friday afternoon (ha! that's funny); whenever i'll make the time for him he says... yeah right.
B also let me know that Y's girl is back in town, which would explain the hang-up when i tried to give him a call this evening to see if he was going to forrest's house on sunday. i mean, is this girl really threatened? trust me, i am not threat, even to myself (if you minus the clumsiness...). but she's making it increasingly difficult to continue being her friend. the shade has got to stop.
aren't you proud of me? i went out after lab today and finally got myself some shoes; 7 months is too long to go without. shout out to the ladies at ladies foot locker: now that's real customer service.
Mic called me after game seven (great game, btw). we talked about things, people and situations. i know it may appear sometimes (even on here) that i'm miss-know-it-all and everyone else is always in the wrong... but i know (and i admit to it...) i have faults of my own. i keep things internalized until i explode on people. i keep grudges (i.e. B and i not talking for seven years.... Mic says i should forgive... he's not ready for my forgiveness yet...). i always have to have a plan for everything, even when sometimes God just wants me to stand still and wait for the blessing.
i know that's not how i work; i know i have these problems. you think i don't know, but i do. and i know you're thinking: well, if she would only stop judging me... but i'm not. there are going to be people that do (even when they shouldn't) and it all depends on how you take it. you can let it bother you and fester and you can try to change for them, or you can note it and move on. it seems harsh to say, but everybody will let you down. i know it even seems that i let you down, but don't say that i didn't warn you. i told you.
i'm letting you know right now that you're going down the wrong path. how do i know? because i've been there and it's not pretty; there's nothing for you there. i love you and i tell you this out of love and care for you. the climb back to where you don't have to feel this way is rough. i did it and it wasn't easy. you can do it too, but you need to try. you need to make that attempt. things can get better than this.
you know who you are.
peace.
there's shade in the air. it must be in the water too, because i'm feeling it from many people (also see shadester; shady lady).
how does he do it? B called me this evening (he's already been calling me too much) to ask if i was still a vegetarian (for forrest's dinner on sunday) and then somehow lures me in this conversation on i should let him take me out and when i would be free. is he kidding me? does he still think i'm as dumb as i was in high school? he claims that we have a date on some random friday afternoon (ha! that's funny); whenever i'll make the time for him he says... yeah right.
B also let me know that Y's girl is back in town, which would explain the hang-up when i tried to give him a call this evening to see if he was going to forrest's house on sunday. i mean, is this girl really threatened? trust me, i am not threat, even to myself (if you minus the clumsiness...). but she's making it increasingly difficult to continue being her friend. the shade has got to stop.
aren't you proud of me? i went out after lab today and finally got myself some shoes; 7 months is too long to go without. shout out to the ladies at ladies foot locker: now that's real customer service.
Mic called me after game seven (great game, btw). we talked about things, people and situations. i know it may appear sometimes (even on here) that i'm miss-know-it-all and everyone else is always in the wrong... but i know (and i admit to it...) i have faults of my own. i keep things internalized until i explode on people. i keep grudges (i.e. B and i not talking for seven years.... Mic says i should forgive... he's not ready for my forgiveness yet...). i always have to have a plan for everything, even when sometimes God just wants me to stand still and wait for the blessing.
i know that's not how i work; i know i have these problems. you think i don't know, but i do. and i know you're thinking: well, if she would only stop judging me... but i'm not. there are going to be people that do (even when they shouldn't) and it all depends on how you take it. you can let it bother you and fester and you can try to change for them, or you can note it and move on. it seems harsh to say, but everybody will let you down. i know it even seems that i let you down, but don't say that i didn't warn you. i told you.
i'm letting you know right now that you're going down the wrong path. how do i know? because i've been there and it's not pretty; there's nothing for you there. i love you and i tell you this out of love and care for you. the climb back to where you don't have to feel this way is rough. i did it and it wasn't easy. you can do it too, but you need to try. you need to make that attempt. things can get better than this.
you know who you are.
peace.
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