soundtrak: john mayer: bigger than my body

the hiatus list:

- i am poor. after paying my taxes (all $2000), i went out today and bought a car. so now i have no savings...
- as for the car-buying, when i said that i wasn't going to buy a car... well, that's a long story...
- i talked to my advisor last week and he got alot of things straightened out for me. my tuition is still not paid (and i bet if i check right now, it still ain't paid), but the classes issue has been dealt with, as well as the 'failing class' scenario (which i am trying very hard not to fail). my paperwork is diminishing.
- i have yet to find a summer rotation; i'm such a procrastinator.
- i haven't talked to T all week. i called him two weeks ago after my voice came back. just waiting to see if he'll bother to call me.
- talking about phone calls, LS called me twice today. he left a message that i haven't heard yet. hmm.
- D's hex is alive and kicking...
- it's the season to run. i'm planning on starting my running soon.
- like the list title says, i'm taking a hiatus. two weeks left of the semester and i'm going to focus. see you on the other side.
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edit: 03 may 2005

before i get back to studying, i just want to send a shout out to my washing.ton wizards for winning game 4 of their first playoff series... i'm just sorry that i didn't watch... man, i'm sorry that i didn't go...

and why did they win?



i kept on saying that people were sleeping on my man juan. he has the skills and he knows what it takes to win (hello... ncaa 2002 champs), but at the time, MJ sat him on the bench... who's sitting on the bench now? HA!
what's there not to love about juan? he works hard and he makes things happen. i'm just glad they gave him a chance.

anyways, more studying and work and etc to be done. is it over yet?

peace.

volia. updated radio.blog. it's a mix of things, so enjoy.

and i want to thank marcus, allison and gerard for their musical influence on me. my library is growing everyday.

feeling much better and getting things done (and getting things done for me). thanks to my comment makers. have a good weekend.

past conversation:

crispy: awwww... i'm not even sure myself... it's just your essence....
chiIQ: hahahahaha
chiIQ: my essence?
crispy: you know... like you can tell certain people are meant to be performers.......
crispy: and others are meant to be ministers.....
crispy: because of their essence....
crispy: you're meant to be a playa...
crispy: you just have to grab on to your destiny
chiIQ: BOO! whatever!

peace.

soundtrak: modest mouse: dramamine

i woke up this morning tired. really tired. i actually woke up not late for the first time this week. i took a shower hoping that it would wake me up. the voice was still gone. but even after, sitting on my bed in a towel, i was exhausted. i just wanted to go to sleep. i told moms that i was going to stay home for the day and proceeded to email aabs and my rotating pi, letting them know that i wasn't coming in today.
people that know me, know that i will not miss a day for school unless they had to rush me to the hospital. probably ingrained when my parents would send me to school with running noses and sore throats. i was just glad that today is one of my light days (one class). i slept for most of the morning and i feel much better. the coughing has subsided and my voice has finally come back.

once again, my immune system has been suppressed due to stress. i know that's why i got sick. we got back the midterm grades yesterday and yours truly didn't do so hot. the average was low, but i mean, what did these people expect. my grade is really not where i want it to be. then to add upon that the stresses of coming in mid-year. my situation doesn't seem to fit anywhere. i'm not getting the emails that i'm supposed to be getting, people want information that i don't have and all this paperwork that i fill out that they told me that i wouldn't have to fill out. i can't register for classes next semester because they haven't paid my bill.... STILL! i don't know what's going on. there's just too much; i don't know what to do. i don't know how to reply to these people. and now i'm starting to get mad. don't tell me not to worry about these things and then you do nothing about them.
i've been eating well (no junk), but i guess not getting enough of the nutrients and vitamins that i need. i take my vitamins when i remember when to take them.

anyways. trying to study for the exam next week and doing some other things. more later.

peace.

soundtrak: earth, wind and fire: september

i don't know what happened. maybe it was stress. i was fine all of last week and then on friday, during rehearsal, i just start coughing. woke up the next morning my throat was swollen. dag! i still needed to sing though, so team leader took me through some warm-ups before singing in the morning (i barely got through). today, i have complete laryngitis. and then to add on that, my usually minor disability is flaring up. it can't get any better than this.

i think D has placed a hex on me. i don't particularly believe in hexes, but i don't know how else to explain it. D made this bet with nic, the boy and i to who would get married first and in what order. D predicted nic would be first, i would second (what?), the boy third and him last. nic and i laughed because at the time, we weren't in any relationship of any kind while the boy is in a rather committed one; the boy was going to be the first of us, no doubt. then the strange things started to happen: nic met a boy and the next thing you know, they're planning to get married. it's crazy, but soon after nic announced her engagement, all these dudes just started come out of the woodwork and hitting on me, even more than average. not that i don't appreciate all the attention (i know that's what the boy would say, anyway), but dag! i'm not scared that something might happen, but it's all sort of strange.
talking with D, he told me how he was (and not 'is' because i do believe he'll meet the woman of his dreams and loose the other bet we have going, which i will mention later) waiting until he finished graduate AND medical school before he commits to a serious relationship. and i do see where he's coming from. i'm also the kind of person that would put my schooling first before anything else. i honestly don't want to be in my third year, married and pregnant. i can't tell you how many students here are in that same exact situation or just plain married, first year off. but you know what, i'm not knocking that. good for them, because lord knows i would be a mess.
with D being the playa he is, i told him he couldn't last 8+ years. we made another bet: whomever is in a relationship for six months, has to take all of us to dinner (including nic + beau and the boy + rotisserie), including the loser's sig. other and pay the tab for everyone. maybe i should of made a better bet, like by the time we graduate or something, because with D's hex powers, i don't know how long i can last out. they just keep on coming out of nowhere.

talking about dudes, MB is a mess. brotha grabbed me like i was his slave, talking about he just trying to say hi. he left a bruise on my body! (and if you didn't know, i have a condition where i bruise easily) i would have talked to him about it, but he was too busy chatting it up with some other girl. sorry for being ghetto, but if he does it again, somebody is gonna get slapped.

sometimes, you want to help your friend, but you don't know how to approach it all. you want to tell them that you've been where they are right now and that there is a way out and things will get better. you want to lead them in the right direction, but you can only watch as they walk the complete opposite way. you've heard the saying that you can't help a drowning person until they stop struggling. all you can do is watch, wait and try to be as supportive as you can.

Y called me on sunday: after i finally replied to his email that he sent during cell midterm madness week. we talked for about an hour about nothing in particular. our relationship is odd to me; we've known each other a long time and we're somewhat close, but not really.

er... radio.blog still not updated... do you guys like the songs? it seems like you do. i don't know; let a sista know.

despite the fact that i can't speak, this week is looking upwards. it's warm and i don't have a pressing exam (well, i do, but i choose not to worry about it right now...). aabs and i are thinking about the w. monument this weekend. it's about daggone time.

anyways, i'm gone.

peace.

soundtrak: common: thelonius

friday's list:

- the cell bio midterm aftermath: who knew that multiple choice could be so evil. if i were on millionaire with those questions, i wouldn't have won the million dollars. word.
- God impressed me to help this homeless man that i see when i pass the mall from time to time. at first, i didn't know what to do, so i talked to the community service department last weekend and got a package on sunday. i was so busy studying this week, i didn't get a chance to go out until today. but it's not about giving the package and feeling good or even doing something good, it's about just doing it.
- i have discovered that i am addicted to my computer. on purpose, i didn't turn on my laptop this whole week (and studied instead). last night, i realized that i hadn't checked my email that day, so i flipped that badboy on and next thing you know, two hours and i was still on... bad, bad chi.
- i had to turn off the tv and celly too... concentration 100%
- i really appreciate the friendship that i have with jam. it's unlike any other; i can be completely frank with him about anything. and moms completely adores him.
- i'm never the girl in my dreams. she isn't me. it's never me. just a more appealing, more aesthetic version of me. and i wake up wishing it were me.

anyways. my brain is mush right now. i'm actually trying to sleep this weekend. gotta look at some sequences for my protein mutants before monday, but i'll be definetly chillin'. more later.

peace.