soundtrak: dj shadow: what does your soul look like (part one)

the rainy day list:

- so today, after class, once again, i was running for the dupont shuttle that was about to leave me, when the driver opened up his window, smiled and waved. my friend; this is the first driver that drove me from dupont to gu on my very first day of class (i drove down for my interviews). when i climbed on the bus, he exclaimed, 'i was waiting just for you.' that just put a smile on my face. it's good to have friends in good places.
- the night before, i told mg that nic and i would be at the school for the ceremony. he called during the dedication and made a special trip to see us both, even if it was only for 5 minutes, he's so busy. i miss him. i don't know what it is about him, his personality or just the way he treats people. you'd wish there were more people like that around. every time i talk with him, he always has a kind word to say. every time he gives a hug, it feels genuine and real. he's physically changed. he used to lift constantly, so he was big. he's so small now. JK also made a special guest appearance at the dedication. i didn't really talk to him; didn't get a chance to.
- i know i've talked about my book obsession here. i'm always buying more books that i can read. i bought two more last week at b&n, adding on to the 50+ books that i bought in the past 6 months that i haven't read yet. i told B the other day, when i buy a house, i'll have a room set a aside for my small library. 'small?' he quipped. part of my problem, i think, is that i love to reread alot of the books i already own. i was looking for a old book last night that i packed with my umbc stuff when i moved out of my campus apartment (and i haven't touched since) and i found all these goodies:



jude the obscure and segu i bought for classes. i couldn't bring myself to read the former until i was at the worst point of boredom... i had to stop myself from finishing the book in one week. i don't know if i could read that one again. segu kept my interest more. i remember when i bought shopgirl; when it just came out. it was a random purchase (like most of my book purchases are), but i really liked the book. i hope the movie adaptation is good because steve kept the script to the book.

anyways, off to do other things.

peace.

soundtrak: depeche mode: enjoy the silence

the monday list:

- umbc on friday was a trip. the ceremony was hilarious. having my lecture for the day recorded, i cooked dinner in the morning before i left (the best chapati i ever made... melts in your mouth, not in your hand..). when i was parking, i ran into wbz. i haven't seen that dude since al's graduation, when he graduated. whoa buddy. met up with nic and walked around the building before the dedication, trying not be bitter with what we didn't get. nic went through her old lab after the ceremony, then instead of going to the reception, we bad-mouthed our old university in the commons. i mean, truthfully, umbc is a good college, a great place for science and technology and i don't regret getting my training from there. but man, how many times have we've been screwed over. like i always say, guaranteed to be screwed over at least twice. i would get into our two hour conversation about how we were screwed over (even more than what i've posted here), but i have to get over it sometime. what we're most worried about is the boy, who it seems painfully resigned to a master's degree after having a horrible time with his PhD program. he was shafted. we also talked about M, who basically lied about getting in grad school (and gave me an unnecessary attack). i mean, i don't know why you would lie about something like that... ehh. it's past.
- mom went out of town the middle of last week, leaving me in charge to cook and look after dad and timon, who would starve first than set foot in a kitchen, i spent most of the time praying that mom would make it back safe so i wouldn't have to do this full time. and then timon, who's going through his typical teenage moodiness, was just driving me crazy this whole weekend. but i can't really complain; i used to be just as moody.
- this song. well, since they have a new album out and everything, this song just got stuck in my head again.
- happy birthday al. we're growing old man. i must know at least 20 people with birthdays in october and it was bothering me so much that i had to calculate back to the month of inception for these people. if my calculations are right (and they rarely are; you guys know i'm bad at math...), it is the month of february. oh, how sickingly cute. with valentine's day and all.
- so i emailed some investigators last week and all of them have emailed me back interested. i'm excited because instead of just one lab, i have a choice of multiple labs. setting up visits and interviews for the next two weeks. yay!
- i've been in pain for the past week or so. my disability flaring up again. i'm not really sure why, but it's starting to affect the things that i normally do, which in my entire life, it has never done.
- the high school crew went out again this weekend. i have resigned that i will not go out with B and Y anymore, especially with her around. anyways, my weekends are usually jam packed months in advance with all the activities and meetings that i have to do or plan or attend as a youth leader and church webmaster. sometimes when i do go, i really wish that i hadn't. i know Y is especially disappointed since he's the one always calling me to attend these things. ehh.
- had an interesting conversation with B last night. not so much about what we were talking about (music and books), but i suppose the kind of conversation it was. calm, quiet even (i don't know if you could call an IM conversation that). usually when we converse, he's always harassing me, annoying me. we're always yelling at each other. i guess he was just calmer last night and i made sure my responses wouldn't insight smart ass remarks (from him, of course). this is the kind of B i like talking to, relating with. he also didn't go out this weekend. he just didn't feel like going.

calm week this week. no biostats homework due because of others midterms. trying not to chill too hard.

peace.

soundtrak: frou frou: let go

the ____ list:

- i'm exhausted today. i didn't sleep well. i spent three hours last night in a room with bickering adults and ineffective leader. talk about a waste of time.
- i had the strangest dream last night, in a period where i haven't been having dreams (maybe it was those organic pretzels that i ate..). i dreamt that i was having a really good time with a guy friend of mine, but all my other friends were upset that we were even going out in the first place. but at some point, i sneaked out on him and went to a chinese resturant that was owned by bbq, who in the dream, really let himself go (and which i find ironic because he's a marathon runner now as well as a vegan...) with blond hair and a beard (which was also blond)... he was having dinner with his employees (i guess it was a slow night) and he asked me to join them. i declined, but then i decided that i wanted to get the bean curd, because they had the best bean curd (tofu) in the world. so i went to go order and guess who was the cook? met.hod man. he was all like, "yeah son?" and i was like, "the bean curd.." and he took out these tofu noodles (i don't think those exsit) and showed me what they looked like by putting it in water... i told him that's not what i wanted and the noodles made me sick (man, i don't know...). so as i was waiting for my bean curd, there was some other dude in the back that tical (met.hod man) shot and then he ran away in a get away car in the back alley. nobody seemed to notice except me. i was really mad that i didn't get my bean curd than the fact that he shot the guy, cos method really knew how to make that tofu correct. then i woke up to kanye west on the radio. really, really weird.
- i think last night was the first night that i didn't talk to T in over 5 months... it was strange and i sort of felt dissatified.
- you know i don't like shopping... but i'm going after class today.. or i went... whenever i post this... i don't want to make an afternoon of it, but the more i think about it, the more i realize how much stuff i need: church shoes, interview clothes, sweaters, shirts, etc... the list goes on...; edit: and oh, how much money i spent... it's a good thing that i only go out every 6 months or so...
- i think i know where the met.hod man reference came from; i was watching gar.den state the other day and i remember thinking about how peculiar it was that he was in the movie.
- i really don't want to go to class, but i already spent $7 of the $10 it takes me to commute to school everyday, so i guess i should go and get my money's worth.

later:

- you ever get an odd feeling?
- what is it? i just saw the commerical and it was hilarious: it doesn't lose suction

i'm done. will update radio.blog soon. any suggestions...

peace.

soundtrak: nick holder: on my mind

all kinds of politics are getting on my nerves right now. kenyan politics, us politics, (washington) football politics, school politics, church politics. gah! i'm just tired.

i don't want to talk about still not having a lab again. it's frustrating and diappointing. my time on my inital grant is running out. and i'm still emailing doctors.

lots of things this week: get my car serviced (it sounds like it's about to break down), call the hospital about resubmitting the insurance claim, biostats homework. nic emailed me back about the building dedication thing and she done rsvp'ed me along with her:

Too late doc, I have already registered both of us...hahahahaha...but seriously, I did... (what movie is that from?????) Skip class if you can, be a rebel...you can be DAMN sure that I am not sitting through that thing alone!

she is so lucky that i love her... anyways, lots of stuff to do today... time to get at it.

peace.

soundtrak: mankind liberation front: safe from the sun

the easy button:

chiIQ: you know they sell those easy buttons at staples now
T: I saw them last week.... that's crazy
T: would u think I would get in trouble if I put it on this girl at my job
T: ?
chiIQ: .... *sigh*... why do you even bother to ask...
T: lol


peace.

soundtrak: mazzy star: fade into you

the crap list:

- i haven't been writing because i feel like my writing has gotten stale lately. and i don't know how to fix it. but i want it to be fresh.
- i'm sitting in the medical library, taking a break from my immunology midterm. i feel productive; i'm almost done with that and i finished my biostats homework this morning. school is cool.
- lots of birthdays in october. this weekend was B's birthday. he turned 29. and how i went to high school with this guy, i still don't know. you know, the age difference could explain so many things. i keep on forgetting that he's four years older than me. i didn't go out with them (Y and etc), but i heard that they went to the watergate hotel (the restaurant, that is). like i would have money for that... dad's birthday was monday. we went out to eat (the greatest tofu i have ever eaten EVER! pf chan.gs people...) and we got him a hat. very stylish.
- T and i weren't talking for awhile; he said alot of crappy things to me last week. but we're slowly getting back to it. very slowly.
- nic wanted to me to go with her to the umbc chem building dedication; they renovated or something. but it's during class. it's the opening to homecoming weekend (with the perennial soccer game... cos we ain't got no football team). it's also gu's homecoming weekend (where i'm sure there will be a football game), but i'm not going to either.
- everybody thinks that everything is going great with me and thus i should be feeling great but i really don't. i don't know if i can really pinpoint it; i feel down about everything. i can't bear to tell the biochem crew, who sent emails all around, updating everyone on their recent endeavors. i haven't written anything. i don't feel like i've accomplished anything. why bring everyone down with my crap?

anyways. back to work.

peace.

soundtrak: coldplay: the world turned upside down

in the paper today:

Two Australian scientists won the Nobel Prize in Physiology or Medicine yesterday for discovering that a common bacterium -- not stress -- causes most ulcers.

The "remarkable and unexpected" 1982 discovery by J. Robin Warren and Barry J. Marshall, who infected himself to prove their theory, overthrew existing the scientific dogma and opened up a new area of research into whether infectious microbes cause a host of diseases, the Nobel Prize committee said.

man, i wanna win the nobel prize too but... damn! i'm not that pressed...do you know what that stuff looks like... what it smells like... ugh...

peace.

soundtrak: benny benassi & the biz: satisfaction

taking tv watching waaaay too far...

T: your are a horrible tv partner.... just so u know... try not 2 take it 2 hard :-[...]
T: i knew u where going to watch...thats why I was waiting for u to log on.... why didn't u have a mutual fealing.... you must cleanse your mind
T: thats the only way u can feel my thought pattern!
chiiq: oh my gosh...
T: what???
T: you feel it...
T: you feel it dont cha... finally!! Welcome to eternity....
T: we have been waiting for you
[...]
T: welcome
T: soon we wont need this silly IM any more
chiiq: wow...
T: i am happy that all of us are now one :'(
chiiq: are those tears of happiness?
T: yes my eternal sibling

peace.