soundtrak: handsome boy modeling school + jack johnson: breakdown

i'm getting ready to study some cell this saturday evening. i haven't started really and the exam is this monday. why?

in short, i did not go to the graduate meeting, because i did the 'running away' thing that i always do when i'm extremely anxious.. i already emailed all the people that i disappointed (because they did reschedule that meeting just for me... and then i still didn't show up). i proceeded to get lost in bethesda (how, i am still asking myself), got home and had myself a mental breakdown (crying and snot and 'why me?!')... mg called me at 2 in the morning and consoled me somewhat. woke up 12 noon the next day, emailed said people, went out and got my car washed and picked up my dry-cleaned coat. cooked chappati (moms says the best i've ever made), went grocery shopping, then vespers til 1am in the morning.

and i still haven't studied. lets see how this week goes.. more at the end of the week.


peace.