Premonition

soundtrak: soultice :: wind (fila brazilia mix)

- it’s 7am in the morning and i’m in lab, i’m not really sure why. i can’t help being an early bird, even if that means i don’t leave until 12 hours later. but it’s friday (and payday), so here’s to leaving somewhat early.
- the last time i flew internationally was when visiting family in Kenya, the winter before 911 happened. after that, i didn’t get on a plane until a good year later. i wouldn’t say i had a fear of crashing, but the possibility of something like that happening freaked me out enough to avoid planes for awhile; i had a conference in upstate NY about a couple of months later and i chose to drive rather than fly. when i graduated from college and came back home, i had no car, so i was constantly on the Metro, taking trains and buses daily. when i got into graduate school, i was on the red line, up and down, at least three times a day, going from work to school to work to home. with the tragedy that happened earlier this week, it hit me; especially with accounts of passengers banging on jammed doors and one of the victims dying while waiting to be rescued. honestly, that is not how i want to die. so i’m avoiding the PT for now. i’m not saying that i will stop taking the train altogether, but i don’t think i could voluntarily get on a red line train right now. i might be driving into the city for awhile.
- sometimes, i get premonitions about certain people, events, things. i think that everybody gets premonitions; mine are few, but very, very strong. i don’t want to get into it, but alot of the events that happened this week, i had very strong premonitions on. i don’t know if the shock is going to just hit me later, if at all. it’s different when you see it coming.
- i think i’m coming down with something; just a cold. it’s been awhile since i’ve been sick. but this week has been exhausting; i haven’t really slept well at all. last night, i slept for 9 hours and i’m still tired.

happy weekend.
peace.