soundtrak: maxwell :: love you
i have been trying to write this entry all day, to no avail. i know what i want to say, so i should just come out and say it:
i’m spoiled. jam loved me the way i want a man to love me: i want the attention, i want the kindness, i want somebody to give a damn. and i know Y will never do that for me ever. he’s a guy, so he’s going to try his best not to make me cry (i don’t know… it’s a guy thing), but he’ll never give me what i need.
*sigh* finally. i said it. now i can take my advil pm (because tylenol pm stopped working a long time ago) and go to sleep.
peace.
I read that at the wrong time, or maybe the right time. I swallowed a lump in my throat after. Fresh painful memory.