soundtrak: john legend :: another again

- i know this particular john legend album has been out for awhile and i wasn’t too terribly interested in it frankly, but this song popped on my pandora playlist. it’s a nice song; instrumental wise, not so much lyrics wise.
- my tendonitis is flaring up again. i didn’t really do anything to agitate it, so i’m wondering why. other than lifting, i haven’t doing too much with it.
- so i met with the pastor this past weekend, after service actually and he gave me the opportunity to talk to MB with pastor acting as mediator. i didn’t realize how upset i was still as i tried to keep my composure. MB started about all this stuff, that he has ‘pure love’ for me and whatnot, but love includes respect and he has only been completely disrespectful of my space and person. he just doesn’t seem to get it. i just hope that’s the last of it; i don’t want to go through this over again.
- it’s too easy to quit, too easy to complain, too easy to do nothing about my graduate school dreams. it’s a little hard to explain, but i just see better things out there for me. it’s not going to be easy but i know i’m up for the challenge. i feel like something good is seriously coming my way. i don’t know what it i, but i feel the anticipation. something good is coming.
- jam and i have been talking for about two weeks now. we did decide that we were just going to be friends and i think we’re both good with the decision, but the line for us is blurred and i don’t want to cross it or do something to cause him to cross the line, to end up back where we started. but he makes me smile, he makes me happy; he’s a blessing to my life.
- what is this structure you ask? it’s oxytocin. this chemical is a neurotransmitter found in the brain, released at key moments to strengthen feelings of social recognition and bonding with other people. without oxytocin we’d all be lonely and nearly incapable of maintaining strong relationships. It can be released whenever you experience moments of touching or other interactions with people. some key moments of high oxytocin production include during breastfeeding, during the birth process, and even at the point of orgasm. both men and women produce oxytocin but men don’t feel the effects as strongly because of interference from testosterone. learn something new everyday. (source)

peace.