soundtrak: klute: stuck on you

i woke up way late this morning. and then to add on top of that, i had the worst commute for this year. i think i must have been driving behind the world’s worst driver, he kept on speeding up and slamming on his breaks. i went to another (slower) lane to get away from him, but then ended up right back behind him when i maneuvered around several other cars. i mean, if you’re going to be an aggressive driver, at least put some style and class into it. i always hate seeing those crazy drivers on the road that don’t know what they’re doing.

anyways, the whole reason i woke up late and have been waking up late this week is because i haven’t been sleeping well. and i guess that’s because i’m sick, but i think i’m sick because i haven’t been sleeping well. my diet right now is consisting of zycam every 6 hours and airborne every four, with your liberal sprinkling of cough drops. i know i’m keeping the full blown sickness at bay right now. dr. a basically told me not to come in until i was feeling better and even though i fell asleep at my desk (did i mention that i have a desk now…) yesterday morning, i stayed pretty much throughout the day. i’m tired of sitting at home being sick. i’m sick of being sick. but i’m sure there will be more to come, with the changing of the weather.

i was talking to T on sunday: “i want to come over and get some cake”. i didn’t think he was serious, but we set up a time on monday. i knew there had to be something more than just trying to get some birthday cake(s) (he did take pieces from both the vegan and the non-vegan cakes). of course, like i have mentioned many times before, ever since i got my 99′ altima, T has been salty to no end. he always claimed that he would get a younger and better car than mine. i swear, that was like a year ago. so lo and behold when this man rolls into my driveway, it’s in his new (used) 2001 maxima.. “with sunroof!” (and you know i don’t have no sunroof…).
i think the first time my parents actually met T was at my birthday party even though i’ve known T for years upon years. mom, being mom plied massive amounts of food to take home with. he was telling mom, that when he went with our friend to look for a car and he asked him what he wanted, T said, “a car that’s better than chi’s”. HA! he did take me to subway and then we drove around for a bit. i think that’s one of the best monday nights i’ve had in awhile since all i usually do is just sit at home and surf on the internet for the rest of the night.

talking about food though, i made pad thai with soy chicken (for lunch today… yum!) and vegan chicken salad, which turned out really well. i was scared about using the veganiaise that i got a while back; for me, there are some foods that i’ll never eat again just because they taste better as the original (i.e. pizza). but, it was good.

i have no words for this; in this day and age, when we have the technology and the know-how and this is still happening. that’s truly sad.

i have so much more that i want to write about, but i trying to be better with organizing my thoughts into separate entries. either that or this entry would still be going. so, more later.

peace.

soundtrak: the velvet teen: chimera obsurant

the top five things on my mind this week:

5. love is like buying a car. right now i have three choices:

a. the nissan altima: slightly older model; not great, but reliable. you know it’ll always start when you turn the key
b. the piece of crap: from far away, it looks like something you want to stay away from, but you appreciate the strong engine under the hood. it’s a work-in-progress
c. the sporty bmw: totally out of your price range; unattainable. and you hate these cars anyways, but when you see it, you hate the fact that you’re secretly attracted to it. damn.

i’m still looking for my saab.

4. motivation is perspiration: i finally got my motivation back by the end of the week. i ordered the reagents, looked up the papers and designed the experiments that i’ll be doing in the next couple of weeks. i don’t know; i was kind of just sitting at my desk waiting for motivation to find me, when i realized that i needed to just work at it. here’s hoping that this next set of experiments leads to publication.

3. red is not my colour: so people that know me know i just don’t wear color alot (i wouldn’t say at all, even though people say that), so when i do wear something with color, people take notice alot. on wednesday night, we went out with the prospective students that visited this week. because i knew we were going to go to a pretty nice (and expensive) restaurant, i wore this really nice red blouse that i got. the whole day at work, i had to wear my lab coat around everywhere; people would just stop and stare at me and it was getting pretty weird. when we got to the restaurant, everybody, including the waiter, were calling me ‘lady in red’. even one of the current graduate students started singing the song. i’m a pretty bashful person and i don’t really like to be the center of attention. the prospective students were a good bunch; i think it’ll be harder this year to pick, compared to last year where we had a couple of people that we knew wouldn’t fit well at all.

2. my name is chi and i’m a book-aholic: i know i have mentioned before that i have a book buying problem, but i think it just really hit me today. actually, i got a package from amazon.com this wee: the prestige (see that movie!), and three books. today, i went into borders looking (and i usually end up buying massive amounts of books when i’m just ‘looking’) and i just noticed how many books on the shelves that i own already but haven’t read yet. how sad is that? i think i need to start working on my novel already. or look on amazon.com. wee!

1. i don’t have a number one: i don’t know what my no. 1 thought is. ehh.

good weekends.

peace.

soundtrak: beck: we dance alone

i need to make this quick because i’m at work and i actually have work to do (imagine that).

the party on saturday was awesome. it was like a college reunion; with bbq + fiancee, veen + husband, crispy (of course), original + special spice (who i haven’t seen in forever). T and Y made it a middle school/high school reunion. i think it was one of the best parties i’ve had in a long time.
crispy ended up staying over and in sleep-induced giggle-fest, we sent funky facebook messages late into the night. man, good times.

there some things that have been bothering me as of late and i’m not sure that i want to even begin to address them, even here on this blog of mine. i don’t know. i don’t feel like doing a PSA (public service annoucement) today.

moving on… i feel like i’m stuck in a non-productive rut. i was trying to explain this to whm yesterday. they say that every graduate student will at some point ‘find’ themselves in a crisis of uncertainty: ‘why am i really in this program?” “why is everyone smarter than me/publishing more than me/getting more work done that me?” i’m so there right now. i don’t feel motivated to do any work and it seems that everybody else is publishing or getting more work done than me. i know it’s a rut, but i’m not really quite sure how i should motivate myself. dr. a remarked after my presentation two weeks ago that she was pushing me. “pushing me,” i inqured. “yeah… well, it happens,” (even she sees my unmotivation!) she remarked, “just as long as i’m not pushing you for the next three years.” yay?
i guess that unmotivation and a slow down in productivity is also a result of not starting qualifying exams yet. we were supposed to get the material for the written part (which they give us a month to study for) at the beginning of february. and look, it’s almost march. anyways, i shouldn’t sit and wait and just get along… especially with writing my proposal… ugh!

this week the prospective students for our program are visiting school and our work campus. you know what that means: free food. and in the case of georgetown and work: good, edible free food. God bless america. your taxpaying dollars hard at work. lol. we’re going out to dinner today; so this will be the first time i get to meet the prospective students. we’lll see.

anyways. work i must. more later.

peace

soundtrak: oasis: live forever

whm and i were returning from school, taking the train back to work campus. we thought it was rather peculiar that large amounts of people were leaving campus through the metro and by car in the middle of the afternoon. lol. of course, MD was right; early dismissal on tuesday, probably wednesday off. we’re still waiting to see, but it looks pretty bad. and they aren’t even bothering to plow the roads.
after i walked back to lab, MD and i went to the gym to workout, even though it took 30 minutes just to get off work campus (ridiculous!). worked out then dropped MD home. the roads were horrible and i have new tires. all i need is a delay so i can get some extra sleep… please!

other things on my mind right now.

peace.

soundtrak: oasis: wonderwall

even before i left work today, it started to snow. they say that it’s supposed to be bad this time around; 1-3 inches starting late tonight and ending wednesday. i’m just looking for some sort of delay or closing of the federal government. i need to get some sleep. i woke up majorly late this morning, wishing i could just go back to sleep. and i went to sleep early too.
MD and i were debating if they would close the labs tomorrow (me) or wednesday (her). whatever. as long as they close.

anyways, i was driving home from work when i took this picture. the flurries always cause mass panic in the dc metro area, so rush hour was extra crowded this evening. i usually sing and/or dance to pass the time driving and/or sitting on the roads. i know people find it rather peculiar, but hey, what can you do. today, i was sitting at a light, going straight, the turn left lanes to my immediate left. i was singing and dancing like i usually do and i guess this guy was really watching me go. the turn left lane light goes first and i guess that’s when i noticed he was leering at me because his lane was long gone and his car was still sitting next to mine. lol. i pointed at the light and his car jerked forward. ha. i was amused by that.

i was supposed to go to a hoyas game with abbs tonight, but i really didn’t feel up to it. i don’t like being in dc at night; it’s just this thing i have. all the other games are on saturday; the last two for the season. ahh well. maybe next year.

more later.

peace.