soundtrak: mylo :: valley of the dolls

as of today, i have lost 120 pounds.

shopping has been a rather odd experience. aabs and i went to a couple stores as i am looking for a dress for my friend’s wedding this weekend. i’m at the point where i’m between the plus size department and regular size department. it’s frustrating because stores tend not to carry the smallest or the largest size, so alot of the styles i liked were not in my size. with the dresses that did fit, they didn’t fit well. we left defeated.
when i was larger, i was comfortable because i knew where to get the clothes that would fit me the best. i didn’t have to try on or think, ‘do these jeans fit right?’. i had my basic wardrobe all set. now i need a new clothes, but i have no money (thank you maryland government).
it’s other things too. i get approached more often by members of the opposite sex; i’m not quite sure how to deal with this one. somedays i miss that anonymity; being ignored. i find myself still thinking like i was still 100+ pounds. it’s work in progress.

peace.