soundtrak: rae and christian :: all i ask

- it’s something about having an (anxiety) attack. i find that the weeks following, i’m very productive. my work in lab has been going well and my boss was impressed. i also mailed in my registration forms for my GREs and i’m signed up. it’s good, i’m excited. one month to study. wee! i don’t really think about when i start to feel like it’s too much and i guess that’s where my problem lies: i don’t know where to stop before it gets too much. i don’t know.
- i like this song. it kind of took a minute to grow on me.
- out of boredom, i painted my nails white. actually, i don’t own any nail polish, so i went out to target one day and just bought white.
- me and writing: somedays, i want desperately to write here and other days, i just don’t. i’m trying to find the balance so that i don’t completely abandon my blog. i know that writing will help me out with alot of the things that i’m going through, but i can’t even write in my personal journal, let alone here. i know it’s my defense mechanism kicking in: if i don’t talk about it, i can pretend that it’s not there. just typing that out is hard for me. hmm.

anyways, that’s all from me for now. my life is very minimal at best, so the updates come when they come.

peace